Today, I'm feeling an overriding sense of loss and regret over my son, Caleb. I wish I could rise above it, but I don't think that's going to happen right now.
I know God is in control. I don't like everything He allows to happen - but where else can I go? He holds my life and all the lives of the people I know in His hands. I know He cares and grieves with me. I wish I understood all of this - I wish He would make it more clear. Right now, all I understand is sadness.
From Psalm 34: The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. This is me.
I miss you.
I saw you and Becky across the aisle at church and my heart hurt for both of you, I just prayed for you throughout the service. The sadness is so overwhelming - I call it a wet blanket that not only envelops but weighs down. I'm sorry that you are walking on this very long path. Know that you are being covered in prayer and loved.
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